@therealcarriebradshaw
Can I get laid by someone normal?
Carrie Bradford, special to Miami World Magazine
was every woman’s worst nightmare. There I was—thirty-five, single, and according to Time Magazine, or Newsweek destined to stay single as my odds of getting married were very low, Florida is a transient State.
As I wound my way along paths of self help and analysis I thought about the religions or self help books that shaped my identity I couldn’t help but wonder: Is arranged marriage better than dating? Could I just find any Israeli man and go from there?
The man is not responsible for my happiness or orgasm. I enjoyed him laughed and told him that I needed only fifteen minutes. But suddenly it was forty minutes later and I found myself getting a quickie divorce in Mexico, and living alone in Boca's Raton., hopelessly stuck. It wasn’t the first time that I had lied to a man about how long it would last. I smiled as I left my psychic network telephone job to go backwards to another table dance.
I was on the phone with a man last week, whom I have never met. I didn't mention my one week marriage as according to YouTube my ex's new wife is a successful Influencer with a child care day care channel in Hebrew. Best to keep my past a secret. He said he couldn't find any women who wanted to settle down with him, but was unable to give up his youthful ideals at 77 years old. He told me that he can get any women he wants, that his groupies ask him to take them home, and he had a skewed perspective being a guitarist. He did offer me a job, a place to stay, and would not be able to use my suggestions that I gave him to improve his livelihood or life, and that's the way it is for men like this in Florida, they use the excuse to stay single so they will be free to mingle, even if they claim intimacy is what they are seeking.
I put Marty, in my catfish box and demoted him to internet friend. He was satisfied with this arrangement, he tipped my online wallet for chat. He wanted to talk about his sexual escapades when he was a young man, I listened and also talked about mine.
I told him I have so many " Backstage Johnny's" and " Groupies" myself, being a singer and a dancer. He pushed away any chance of genuine intimacy by turning me off with asking me to date him. I offered him a live lap dance and he balked, saying that a woman had once asked him for money and sugar baby and didn't want her then.
So I understand the proverbial carrot on a stick. Being in both the psychological needs and feminist views on his requests, its a no-deal, self cock block.
What Marty doesn't want is sexy chat. Marty wants an opportunity to fantasize about a date with me that may or not happen in the future. Marty reports he wants love and connection but its obvious he wants free love in the physical sense without spending money or effort. Isn't that what we all want? A soulmate that doesn't play mind games?
Like me, many years ago when I was 35, I reported to my therapist that I wanted one thing, but really deep down wanted a loving connection with a man. I had used my sex addiction and love addiction to get what I needed. Make your stalker into your soulmate I thought this morning after dreams I could not remember.
I did remember a stripper from Jamaica and also a customer who was a psychiatrist turned car salesman, giving me this advice, " Turn your wants into your needs, your bills will be paid".
I have turned my wants into preferences that's why Marty didn't score with me. Or the other friend named Marty, for that matter. The Handbook To Higher Consciousness and Barrie Konakov self hyponosis. I turned my would be dates to friend and Fans Only!
Carrie Bradford is the pseudonym for the author of the best selling books " You can Have Orgasm even if you are a female" and " She Knows"
